i came home to an email from Mistress last night. i love it when that happens! There was a link to a video She said i would enjoy and to make sure i did not touch myself while watching it. i am soooooo glad she told me not to touch because if i had i would have exploded within seconds!! All of those women laughing at me… being used for training… being seen as a ridiculous male with a ridiculous penis that makes a ridiculous mess… women spitting on me… mmmmmmmmmm

i’m scared to watch it again but i want to so bad. Maybe Mistress will let me stroke this weekend and i can watch it then. i hope i set up the link correctly.

Jerkoff Training video from boreme.com

(i’m sorry Mistress Abigail. i promise to never type the word “goo” on this blog ever again. Yes, i can see how disgusting that sounds. i’m sorry.)

When i first contacted Mistress Abigail on niteflirt, i told Her that i have a small dick. She asked how small is it and i confessed it is only four inches long, hard. i offered to prove it on cam and She pointed out that it says on Her blog that Her yahoo ID costs $100. i would have to pay Mistress to subject her to such a sad sight! After i read that something terrible happened. i ejaculated my filthy goo all over my hand. i didn’t even realize i’d been touching my little peepee. i was too embarrassed to tell Mistress so i just kept paying for the emails She would send over the next two days but i did not write back. Every time i did that, i would feel more and more ashamed. Soon i was paying $20-30 for one line messages. When i opened them, all Mistress had typed was “I knew you couldn’t resist” and then She would laugh. It got very expensive but it was like self imposed punishment for not responding to this wonderful woman.

Finally after two days i wrote back. i confessed how many times i’d cum while paying for Her emails and begged Her to tell me to buy Her yahoo ID. i would love to copy her reply here but i don’t have permission. You would love to read it. It has to be one of the most perfect emails i’ve ever read. Mistress Abigail KNEW. She knows and understands everything. i was allowed to buy Her ID that night. i will write about that first chat next time.

Thank You, Mistress Abigail, for allowing me to keep this blog for You. i promise i will try my best to please You. i look forward to any assignments You have for me. i will use spell-check as You instructed.

First things first, i should explain myself. Or try to. i get turned on by being embarrassed by (or in front of) women. my little dick starts getting hard as soon as my face turns red, my stomach flip-flops and my pulse rises. There seem to be a lot of men out there that feel the same way. Not all of us just want to be called names and told we’re worthless over and over. Mistress Abigail has managed to make me blush down to the tips of my toes just from making an off-hand statement. She can make one little comment and it becomes fact. Her observations of my pathetic nature seem so honest and She has the most amazing laugh.

i had begged Mistress Abigail to write about me in Her blog. i’ve even begged to be allowed to leave feedback on Her niteflirt listings but She won’t let me. Mistress says i’m just an attention whore and She won’t allow me to take up any of Her precious space for my wanking material. Of course She’s right. The thought of anyone else reading about what a loser I am gets me so excited. Instead Mistress is allowing me my own puppet blog as long as I behave. i don’t even know if She will read any of this because i know I bore Her. i hope i can make this interesting enough to amuse my Humiliation Mistress and anyone else that reads this.

Thank you Mistress Abigail. i adore you