First let me say that I have used for some time now a perfectly legal pharmaceutical that allows one to stay awake and alert far longer than is normally possible. However, typically I have never used that to do more than pull an all nighter for work, so I can go in the next day […]
I’m feeling a bit weary and dull-headed as I write this but I’m in the middle of an insane weekend with Abigail. It’s indulging my appetite for extraordinary levels of extended sexual arousal grounded in bad behavior. And though I know all that - the generality about myself I am learning new specifics. Such as […]
I’ve been quiet lately and there are reasons for this that are too dull to be worthy of description here but it has made me realize the extent to which Abigail dominates my life - not just in the literal kink way but to the extent that absent her I don’t have an extensive series […]
Abigail often has these passing fetishy interests and I had expected the ‘forced intoxication’ play to grow old for her and that it would already be behind us. But it hasn’t. If anything it’s escalating. I’m not turned on by intoxication per se, but I am turned on by bad behavior, by things that […]
It’s been about a month now since I last came. Neither I nor Abigail are sure of the exact date but it was most likely sometime in the beginning of February. It started without any negotiation it was more that I happened not have cum for a few days and she suggested extending it.
I’ve always […]
Golden Rules
1.Abigail’s requirements take precedence over all other life requirements
2.The requirements of your employment which finances your relationship with Abigail are next
3.Everything else – family, friends etc. - come after Abigail, and after your work.
Behavioural Rules
Complex Truth About You #1:
Your relationship to Sexual Arousal is that of a Degenerate Drug Addict
In your past your compulsion […]
I just paid November’s monthly fee for $250. The fact that I paid it without much reflection is on my mind. I don’t have the money. It’s more debt. It makes no sense. I should walk away. But I don’t. It’s an illness. I don’t know why I keep walking down this path.
And last night […]
It wasn’t working. He couldn’t believe it. He was sitting in his car on the driveway. He’d just gotten back. He was on the phone. The smooth female voice was telling him, “It will take time; I’ve always told you that haven’t I? Objectification is a subtle long term process. Just because you’ve bought a […]
A fictional story by petproject.
The winery restaurant was set in the thankfully still undeveloped foothills that lay barely a mile from the urban sprawl of the valley.
I remember, as we ascended the steps, whispering that you looked so refined in that summer dress. That no-one had the least idea you were a cock-hungry fuckwhore. The […]
Abigail’s present to me was to give me free reign to masturbate during an entire weekend and to be allowed to cum when I felt like it.
Me being me ended up not coming because I love/hate the idea of love/hating the fact that I wanted so badly to cum and yet wanted more, I suppose, […]
Mistress X retired and I searched for someone of her caliber to see instead. I found Mistress Y.
Mistress Y, like X, is physically stunning, is very intelligent, very experienced, and is a specialist in seductive sensual domination. And her play space was similarly sumptuous, comfortable and fitted out with intimidating and exciting devices and equipment.
The […]
This recollection is of an event that is at least a decade back in the past, so I’m not going to claim it’s entirely reliable or trustworthy as a verbal documentary. What it is, however, is an accurate outpouring of the version of events that currently resides in the horrid dark chambers of my memory.
[Note: […]
The following came out of my head as I was stroking today in compliance with the Empty House guideline (see Guidelines tab):
700pm
Came home to empty house. logged on. stroking. in kitchen. no lube. hard anyway.
703pm
no way to avoid stroking cos 3day weekend .. nothing that needs to be done tonight cos can be done tomorrow […]
The urge to stroke is consuming me. I want to talk to Abigail so I can stroke. I want to return to a home alone so I can stroke. I want to be allowed to stay up all night so I can stroke. I’d love to be required to stroke in the morning if only […]
I won’t often post here, mainly because I have better things to do, but as I was cleaning out my email inbox, I came across a chat I’d saved and felt the need to share. PP had broken a very strict rule and I was pissed. We’d been chatting long enough that he […]
Recently I fell asleep while chatting online with Abigail. She had been in a very playful sexy mood and I fell asleep. As you might imagine this didn’t go over too well. It’s probably unrelated but the next day she sent me an email payment request for $250. I paid it.
Then later that evening she […]
It’s vaguely disturbing to report that warming and cuddling Lex, the large black rubber cock, has already become normal.
When I go to clean my teeth I turn on the faucet on the second sink and let it run, and as I’m brushing I dip my fingers into the stream to see if it’s hot. When […]
Came home to an empty house. Masturbated for 2 and half hours …
Lots of very nasty thoughts during session. Some highlights were :
* have to cut monthly budget 40%. - nothing beyond a regular coffee for me at any coffee shop. No convenience foods. Make lots of one thing and eat it for several nights.
* […]
How long have I known Abigail .. well in a long existing yahoo account I have emails that go back to May 4, 2004.
It must be earlyish because I’m using the eccentric nom de plume of “David”.
Here is the very earliest one i have from May 4, 2004.
Abigail,
Well here we go:
I love hunting for erotica/dirty […]
Abigail has asked me to put an entry on the blog about my relationship with her. So I’m going to try to do that one more time right here.
Firstly, the most truthful thing to say is that my relationship with Abigail is what it is. Namely that it exists, but there’s not much else to […]
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