Many of us are busy with holiday preparations, but we must not forget to treat ourselves. I’m an “early” shopper so I’ve finished all of my Christmas shopping. I fully plan on treating myself with … more shopping (for myself, of course). I get some perverse sort of pleasure out of casually strolling through the shops, being totally selfish, while everyone else around me is completely stressed. I can walk around in high heels while the other women are wearing running shoes. I can buy more heels, clothes, lingerie etc. while they’re worrying about getting the right toys for their little ones. lol Ahhhh… life’s little pleasures.
I highly recommend that you treat yourself as well by contributing to my shopping fund. Imagine how rewarding it will feel knowing that you’re paying for my holiday happiness. Experience peace vicariously through me as I buy pretty things, have lunch with my girlfriends and pamper myself with a manicure and pedicure. Give your change to those bell-toting Santas if you like but hand the real money over to me and feel that holiday spirit grow! Click the pretty banner to pay $100 and make me happy.

My play-puppy, buster, is a delightful pet in so many ways. He begs for many things and one of those is to buy shoes for me. It had gotten to the point where all I had to do was mention I liked a certain pair and my puppy would start whining and whimpering for permission to buy them. A few days ago, he was begging to buy this lovely pair of “Wicked” pumps by Carlos Santana simply because I expressed interest in them. It’s rewarding to have such an attentive puppet, but I wanted to make sure there was real feeling behind the purchases and not just a Pavlovian response to my “I like these…” comments. I gave buster an assignment before I allowed him to buy these pumps. Like the wonderful puppy he is, he went above and beyond what I was looking for in the assignment and I had to share what he wrote. After all of that, how could I refuse his request? The new shoes are on their way to me now. lol

Click here to read the assignment buster turned in: (more…)

My birthday is next week. I’ve already received a few early presents but, being the greedy woman that I am, I want more. I want to be showered in gifts, gift certificates and lots of lovely money. Click those tribute buttons and make me happy. I really don’t think anything more needs to be said.
So that this entry isn’t incredibly short, I’ll include one of the photos I took for buster’s private picture collection. That’s a big pile of shoes I’ve received as gifts (over the past year) with the newest pair on my pretty feet. More shoes are on the way. My buster is a very good shoe puppy.

Well, I’m not relaxing just yet. I have finally moved into the new house but there are still many things to take care of. Thankfully these will be the fun things like decorating and painting. A few puppets took it upon themselves to fund parts of my moving expenses. One was so thrilled with his little reward that he’s chomping at the bit to help pay for the decorating and painting. Notice I said “help pay”. That means help you, not me. lol
Panty boy kelli has again decided to disappear. This time he says his wife found out about his online porn habit so he’ll have to lay low for a while. Hmmm… Whether I believe him or not, I do know that he’ll eventually come running back wearing his silky and slutty panties. Before he faded away, he had promised to buy the VS babydoll halter I’d mentioned in a previous post. That fell through so petproject stepped up to the plate. I received it today and decided to share it with you all. I’m sure you’re looking at the pretty beadwork and not at my breasts. Right? lol

There have been a couple of name changes this week. In honor of my one year anniversary as puppy Tim’s owner, I have decided to give him his puppy name. I’d gotten so used to just calling him “puppy”, with genuine affection, that I never considered it a default name. That name certainly worked. He came when called and has always been eager to please. Then I started thinking… puppies are playful, energetic and loyal. They tend to strut around when they know they’ve been good, looking very pleased with themselves. Sometimes they misbehave. That is expected. Punishment is delivered and life goes on in puppy’s world. Above all, they have personality. Tim isn’t a dishrag. He has opinions that I appreciate. He’s humorous, productive, intelligent and adores his owner. Last night he learned the new name I’ve chosen for him. From this point on he will be known as Buster. I think it’s a great name. Unfortunately for him, puppies have no say in what their owners name them. lol It will take some getting used to on both our parts, but I’m sure he’ll soon come running as soon as he hears it just like the good boy he is.
The other name change is from a tease and denial puppet. He recently took it upon himself to change his NF username to “Abigail’s Toy”. Isn’t that cute? I think our last call had a lot to do with that. He usually calls once, maybe twice a week and I get him all worked up by controlling his masturbation. Sometimes I let him cum and sometimes I don’t. He never knows and that’s the way I like it. lol Before our last call I’d instructed him to buy some type of vibrator. Obedience is rewarded. The next time we talked, I drove him crazy by having him alternate strokes with vibrations against his cock. It wasn’t long before I heard music to my ears: begging. Since I enjoy those pleading moans so much I did drag it out for a while. I let him cum that night and from what I heard, it was fantastic. Maybe an hour later I received an email informing me of the name change. Another devoted puppet.
My Aussie boy expressed interest in changing his name to something more fitting a servant of mine. I’ve told him to hold off on that. We only started playing two-three weeks ago. I understand the desire to show the world that I’ve claimed my property but I think it’s still a bit premature. I’ve learned a lot about him in that time and tonight learned even more (can anyone say “loves cock”? lol) but I need to do some digging. I’m sure there are a few more kinks for me to uncover. He’s scared to death that people will find out what a pervert he really is so I won’t say a thing about how much he loves cock. *evil grin*
Unrelated news: As you can see, there’s been a delay with the financial domination section. Buster came up with some really great ideas and it’s going to take some time to see if I can implement them. The Wanker Game will have to wait until after my move. Between packing, moving, unpacking, cleaning and painting my spare time is nonexistent. Look for more news on that sometimes around the beginning of October. A few of you have expressed interest in buying gifts for my new house. By all means, go right ahead. lol I’ve created a “housewarming” wishlist on Amazon (linked from my main wishlist) and supercertificates from giftcertifcates.com are always welcome. I can use those to shop locally for painting/decorating supplies and nifty new things to fill the house.

A couple of people have asked about the dice game I played with panty-kelli. There was a fabulous finale yesterday so I’ll write about it here for everyone to read. First I want to say that kelli and I only communicate via email on NiteFlirt. As of yet, we haven’t spoken by phone and he has not purchased my chat ID. kelli is a compulsive masturbator. When he first contacted me, I heard about how he’d get off almost every day and loved the way it felt to cum all over his hand and belly. That certainly had to change. lol After a few sessions of tease and denial (with some panty wearing and dildo riding thrown in) kelli excused himself and took some time off. By the way, that is the correct way to take a break from our sessions. Going MIA with no excuse or apology is rude and I do NOT appreciate rudeness. As you’ve read in previous entries, kelli kept an eye on my blog and felt jealous of the attention some of my puppets have received here. Isn’t that cute? lol To ease him back under my control, we played a game…
At the time there were eight books on my Amazon wishlist. kelli was instructed to purchase each one for a chance to orgasm. I had three dice (die?) and for each roll he chose a number between 1-18. If his number came up, there was the possibility of eight orgasms. Personally I was hoping he’d lose all eight rolls, but we won’t tell him that. Imagine my surprise when he won the very first roll. Damn beginner’s luck! kelli had to pay for the results in a pay-to-view email. In fact he had to pay for all eight results, win or lose, which he soon found out. So anyway, he was able to cum. A few days later, he was ready to try his luck again. Rolls 2-8 were duds. According to the terms he had agreed to, that meant no orgasm at all. Oh happy day. lol In his desperation, kelli eagerly paid for a guaranteed orgasm and set about accomplishing his deed. Then I receive this email:

I spent yesterday trying to get over what happened. You see after you told me I could cum.. I was in bed stroking. I edged once as you wished, then I edged again. This time I had to really fight back the climax.. it felt so good to squeez it off.. to deny myself that pleasure. The pre-cum flowed out of me.. and I was still rock hard.. so I started to stroke again. Getting closer and closer … and then I guess I wanted to feel that again so I stroked and as I felt the building of my orgasm I stroked slower and slower, working up to a climax. I wanted to cum, but just as I started to feel that swelling and push for release.. I squeezed hard to cut it offf.. God! it hurt so bad.. but I felt I had cut it offf.. and the pre-cum flowed out of me.. I layed there waiting to cool offf a bit and stroke again. But my dick went soft and I couldn’t get it back up/.. I touched the pre-cum and realized I had cum…. but not climaxed.. I had squeezed off the climax but the cum just oozed out of me.. I couldn’t believe I had done that.. I tried and tried to jerk off, but couldn’t… so you gave me a gift orgasm and I screwed it up..

I guess donating an orgasm to pet project did nothing to improve his Cum Karma. LOL If you liked that, panty-kelli, maybe next time we’ll try milking you with your pink dildo, Tinkerbell. hahaha
On a totally separate note, I am in lust with Victoria’s Secret’s silk halter babydoll in silver, item number 200-655. For anyone that’s interested. (purchased by petproject) I really should be concentrating more on my upcoming move instead of drooling over lingerie. Oh well. Some things can’t be helped.

Panty-boy kelli is back and as you can see from the comment he left on my last post, he’s jealous of puppyTim. Why are sissy sluts such attention whores? LOL kelli wanted in on the shoe game I play with my puppy and even went so far as to offer up his next orgasm to him. My favorite little pet is out of town right now and we have certain rules in place anyway, so no one is giving him free orgasms. Now PetProject on the other hand… I’ve stopped keeping track and can’t even remember the last time he was allowed to cum. When was it? I had kelli write a note to PetProject. I’m sure we could all use a good laugh so here it is. hahaha

Dear pet project,

Mistress Abigail has been trying to come up with a reward for good behavior. She told me that puppy Tim gets to cum once she has recieved his shoe gift. She was going to allow me to cum this weekend, but being the sick pervert that I am, I told her that I wanted to give my orgasm away, so she thought of you.
So pet project I’m giving my orgasm to you.. I’m sure she will instruct you on when and how you can cum.. that up to her.
Anyway I’m not buying the shoes after all. She wants to play this game with me, She told me to buy all of the books on her wish list, 8 in total and when she receives them she will roll 3 dice and if my number comes up I get to cum.
I will have 8 chances to win an orgasm. God she is so good.. I can’t believe my luck in finding her.
I hope you enjoy the orgasm as much as I would have.

panty boy kelli

Is this some weird new way to “pay it forward”? LOL

Puppy Tim has been my play puppy, my pay puppy and my whining, begging, denied puppy. Now he is also my shoe puppy. Every week he is now tasked with the job of finding his owner new shoes. He’s been buying shoes for me off and on for months now, but we’re starting a structured shoe-hunt. My little pet must search online for high heels that he hopes I will like and submit his findings weekly. If he’s done his job properly, I allow him to buy a pair. Little puppies get so excited when you tell them they’re good boys. lol While I wait for the delivery, I tease and deny him until he’s so worked up that he’s begging and yipping. Poor guy isn’t given permission to cum until I have the heels in my possession and like them as much on my feet as I did online. In round two, puppy found the most perfect shoe ever after I told him to look for anything in blue. I loved them so much that he was then allowed to buy the same style in red and black. Perhaps I’ll let him buy the entire line for me in every color.
At the moment, Tim is out of town and I miss my pet. When he gets back, he has an extra task of buying a new leather leash. If you’d like to see the recent purchases he’s made, head to my ‘tributes and gifts’ page and visit the Amazon wishlist link. You’ll see the items I currently want but if you click on the ‘puchased’ drop down link you’ll see my newest shoes. He’s paid for every pair there except for the black sandals. Panty-boy kelli bought those as a parting gift because our session became a bit too intense for him. lol Here’s a picture of the black pumps on my lovely feet.

puppyTim had been absent for a while. Me, being incredibly patient, understood that things come up and we can’t all play non-stop. But even my patience can wear thin so I sent him an expensive pay-to-view email demanding his attention. I’d missed my favorite puppy’s adoration. Yes, he’d purchased the Chanel sunglasses from my Amazon wishlist a few weeks ago as a little forget-me-not but that wasn’t nearly enough. Last night puppyTim messaged me on Yahoo after paying for the email. His apologies were accepted (I’m also very forgiving) and he was once again his cute little puppy self… following me around and licking my toes during a very lovely call. Welcome back, pet and happy birthday.
Some of you have really latched on to the idea of a weekly confessional. I’ll be adding the button for that over on the left when I get a chance. I’ve read some nasty emails. Have you people no shame?! Perverts are so fun. LOL One male attached a picture of his tiny penis to his confession. At least I think that’s what it was… I’ve never seen anything quite like it. He’s probably hoping I’ll add it to my blog, but do I really want to scare my readers away? Perhaps I’ll create a small penis humiliation page and post all of the little dick photos that come my way. Don’t worry, I’ll give everyone advance warning so you don’t spit out your coffee when you click the link.
I’m toying with the idea of allowing a few of my puppets to blog on my website. Pet Project has kept an online diary for me for almost two years, so I know he’ll update regularly. Anyone else that’s interested will have to prove they’re worth my effort before I add more blogs. I have to upload the software and customize the look, so it takes a fair bit of my time. Hopefully, I’ll have PP’s blog up and running within the next couple of weeks.
For those that are interested, I’ve added a few new things to my Amazon wishlist. You can see it by heading to my “tributes and gifts” page. Once you’re there, you’ll know what to do. lol

When I wear my strap-on, the first thing I do is grab hold and start shaking it. Then I slap it around. LOL It’s good to be a woman. I don’t have to worry about floppy bits hanging between my legs. Georgia O’Keeffe was right. Pussies do look like flowers. Still, there’s something to be said for strapping one on and waving it in your face. Oh, you’re too scared to suck a real dick but you’d give just about anything to wrap your lips around mine. Close your mouths. I’m not going to talk about you wannabe cocksuckers. The topic today is pegging. My 8″ strap-on may look intimidating, but I know you fantasize about lubing it up and feeling it slide right into your ass. Imagine me bending you over and slowly fucking your hole. I lean over and my mouth is by your ear whispering nasty things. You’re already feeling sore, but I make you beg for it harder and faster. Nothing says ’submissive little bitch’ quite like getting fucked in the ass, does it?
For my sissies, I have a pretty pink attachment just for you to bounce up and down on with slutty enthusiasm. hahaha

Every once in a while I receive, what I call, a drive-by confession. One of you boys will send a tribute with a short little note telling me how wonderful I am and admitting to at least one of your naughty thoughts or deeds. I enjoy the role of being your Confessor. I love those little peeks into your fetish-obsessed minds. Sometimes a relationship grows out of your admittance and sometimes it doesn’t. I guess letting me know you secretly want to suck cock or sniff my panties and then running away does something for you. I know it amuses the hell out of me.
I’m making it easier for your drive-by confessions now. For a mere $20 you can write all about whatever you like. You can even do it weekly. I’m sure all of you sin on a daily basis. Get your perversions off your chest. Apologize for clicking ALL of my buttons but never paying. What the hell is up with that anyway? lol Nosy little wankers. Click this button and get started on your journey to absolution from Goddess Abigail.

$20 Confessional

I was surprised when I first realized how many males prefer their distance domination to happen through emails. I have to admit I get a kick out of knowing your sitting at your computer constantly refreshing the screen hoping to see a new email from me. Then you happily pay to read it. Is there anything as wonderful as NiteFlirt’s pay-to-view mail system? I think not. LOL After doing a little digging, I’ve found out what the attraction is to email-only contact. First there is the antici…pation of a new message. Then you have all of these wonderfully evil emails in your inbox that you can read over and over at your leisure. Lastly, you can indulge in the naughty stuff while at work (or in other less than private places).
I can send tasks, shopping lists, photos, erection inducing paragraphs or even reprimands. You never know what you’ll find until you pay to read. By the way, I really love it when I’ve gotten you all excited just before you’re headed off to a work meeting. Do you grab some papers to hold in front of you as you walk? Do you pray that woody will go down FAST? Do you just saunter right in hoping one of the ladies will notice and giggle? hahaha
I can tease you mercilessly with my exceptional creativity and typing skills. It’s so heart-warming to read your pleading emails. You can be rather creative too when you’re begging for an orgasm. Oh yes, tell me how you can’t stand any more of this torture and then I’ll prove you wrong by making you wait another day (or week). I’ve helped a few chronic masturbators on their way to wanking recovery. As I’ve said before, that release just isn’t as satisfying without my permission.
Then there are the males wanting me to financially dominate them. Our inboxes fill up pretty quickly when I’m toying with you, don’t they? That first reply from me may be pretty cheap. Each successive reply gradually gets more and more expensive. You can’t help it. You have to see what’s inside waiting for you. Maybe you’ll regret the hundreds of dollars you spent on me the next day, but I had my fun. Besides, you’ll be back. You can’t help it.
If you desire general domination, tease and denial or even emails dealing with your specific fetish then start by answering these getting-to-know-you questions in this $5 email:

If you have that trembling feeling in the pit of your stomach after reading about financial domination then you can start by either clicking that $5 email button AND sending a tribute or listening to this recording and emailing me about how you’re now under my spell:

3 Minute recording for $30

I have a few puppets that enjoy the fantasy of sucking a real cock. A couple of them suck on their favorite dildos for me. Practice makes perfect. Remember Abigail’s pet project? I’m slowly working him up for a real blowjob session. He’s even gotten a membership at a local bath house, but hasn’t gotten the nerve up to visit it yet. This puppet has a genuine enthusiasm for nasty throat fucking. I’d heard him slurping and gagging on his 10″ dildo many times before, but I’d never seen it until he asked if he could turn on his cam the other day. Wow! This freak would put any $10 street hooker to shame. I’m sure he’d be a hit at the bath house. Click the screen shot for the full video.

Along with permission to put this video on my blog (yes, I do request permission), pet project also sent a lovely tribute and $1k gift certificate from www.giftcertificates.com. I think I’ll add that option to my “tributes and gifts” page. Actually, he didn’t have a choice about handing over his money. Silly pet. That’s what you get for telling me you had more available credit. You know I’ll end up taking it all. Again.

I teased a panty-loving sub by telling him how I’d just rearranged my lingerie drawers. He begged for a picture, and being the benevolent goddess that I am, here’s a photo of one drawer. A friend said it would be fun if I labeled what’s what so here’s a quick description:
On the left is a stack of pantyhose and stockings. Behind them are some tights (regular and fishnet). The two middle rows are bra and panty sets. Behind those two rows are boy shorts and garter belts. On the right is a row of about 30 pairs of panties and thongs.

I imagine there are some very girly males out there that think they can top this drawer of mine. Send a picture of your sexy underthings (not your wife’s or girlfriend’s!) and if your drawer looks better than mine, I’ll post it here. If some sissy does manage to outshine me, my puppets better prepare themselves because I will insist that one of them buys more panties for me.

I’ve received quite a few emails asking about financial domination. What exactly is financial domination? What is the appeal to the submissive guy? Why, oh why would they give so much money to someone they’ve never met in person? I’m hardly an expert on the subject, but I’ll share my conclusions (which I’m constantly revising and updating).
So far I’ve dealt with three different types of submissives that have been interested in submitting to me financially: humiliation junkies, princess spoilers and “oh-my-god-I shouldn’t-do-this-but-I-can’t-help-myself” financial ruin freaks. For the vast majority this is only one of the ways they want to serve. Sending me tributes and gifts is not their only fetish. If they have a foot fetish or shoe fetish, are excited by cuckold roleplay, tease and denial, humiliation or mind control then financial domination adds an extra edge to our play. It’s a thrill. It’s a type of edge play they can experience long distance.
Humiliation Junkies know they aren’t worthy of my attention so they pay for it. These boys often come and go as their hardons dictate. The more I humiliate them by picking on their particular short coming(s), the more excited they get until they finally explode in a horrified, blushing ecstasy. Paying for the privilege of my attention just adds to the embarrassment.
Princess Spoilers obviously want someone to spoil. They love to send gifts in the hopes of making me happy. Some like to pay bills (rent, car payment etc) and some like to support a type of lifestyle (manicures, spa visits, jewelry, shopping trips etc). They feel all warm and cozy when they make me smile. Princess spoilers have a special place in my heart when they work to anticipate my needs and desires.
Financial Ruination Freaks gravitate towards extreme fetishes, fantasies and roleplays. They crave that feeling of helplessness when I control their behaviour. They sometimes fantasize about working an extra job, cutting their own spending down to the bare essentials or selling their house and living in a cheap apartment just to send me more money. They run up their credit cards and apply for more (with my encouragement). Even though I’m laughing at their impending doom, humiliation isn’t the main factor in their excitement. It’s more of an expected by-product. After all, who wouldn’t laugh at some spineless worm that can’t control his own purse strings? I really enjoy hearing how they have to eat ramen noodles every day while I’m taking my girlfriends out to eat.
This email I received sums up the thoughts of those toying with the idea of financial domination:

Dear Miss Abigail, i love Your website and i’ve read every single page. i’ve paid special attention to Your writings on financial domination and i don’t know why but thinking about You controlling my money drives me crazy. i know it makes no sense and i try not to give in but what You write touches some part of me and it both scares and excites me. i try to stay away but every day i come back hoping theres another picture of Your beautiful feet or more written thoughts from Your cunning mind. Sending You this email probably isn’t a good idea and part of me hopes You won’t write back. (another part of me will be checking every hour hoping that You do) If You check Your niteflirt account You will see a $300 gift from (member name withheld). Even if we never speak i wanted to thank You for the kindness and thoughfulness i sense in Your writings. i’ve read many websites of other financial Dommes but something about You seems true and honest. Submitting my mind and wallet to You is what i dream about. Faithfully Yours, (name withheld)

Those of you that just send a silly message saying “please take my money” should take notes from him. You’ve probably figured that out since I don’t respond to such lame attempts for my attention. A respectful email and a thoughtful gift will get you much further… even if you don’t necessarily want to go there. lol
Again, these are my experiences in the financial domination arena. Just like any fetish or fantasy, there are as many variations on the theme as there are participants. I’d love to hear your views on the subject. Either leave a comment here or send an email. Here’s a photo of my “beautiful feet” in pantyhose just for you, email boy. Enjoy.